Dm - breast cancer

[Ginmakesitallok]

My lovely mum had a biopsy last week - breast nurse said that the results would not be good. She gets results on Thursday. It's shit. I live a plane ride away, and wish I could be with her. She says she's ok with it. I have no idea how to tell my dc.

I'm trying to pretend it's not happening. A friend has just had her treatment stopped and only has a couple of months left. My mum's been asking after her - and I just can't tell her that friend is dying.

My mum is my world.

She has a stage 3 tumour. Surgery is 5-6 weeks away. Tonight she said she didn't feel well and thinks the cancer has spread somewhere else.

Fuck sake.

I'm so sorry

That’s awful. I’m so sorry this is happening to you. X

I'm trying to keep it out of my mind, which I feel really guilty about. But the alternative is just breaking down, which I can't do in front of dc. I feel like screaming.

A bit of avoidance and distraction can be the best/safest thing to do sometimes. Especially when there are kids about to protect. I hope you find some time for yourself too soon x

Surgery got brought forward. She had a lumpectomy and lymph node clearance today. Hopefully will get home tomorrow. She has to have a ct and bone scan to rule out spread - but she's being v negative, saying that she's felt ill for a long time and knows it's spread. I'm at her house - on my own. Considering a gin.

Best wishes for you and her. A little gin can’t be criticised :)

Update. Bone scan was clear, some patches on her liver - which consultant thinks are just cysts (having follow up ultra sound),
She won't be having chemo - risks outweigh benefits. Will have radiotherapy and hormone therapy. So all pretty good really. Helps to write it here

Pleased to hear your news Gin and fingers crossed about the liver cysts.

Thinking of you both