I am sorry if this is the wrong place for this question. Dh has a life limiting illness which over the last five years has become more obvious. Today we went for a GP appt and really the only thing we came away thinking was things are not going to get better. There is a very real chance that everything may trundle along pretty much the same for a good long time but we don't know and I can't seem to focus on that. All I can think selfishly think about is being widowed and living without DH.
Even if things remain the same we are still faced with impact of the physical disability and how this has changed what we can do as a family. I do really miss the stuff we used to do and although I am happy to care for dh and do stuff with the dcs it isn't the same. I am struggling to stay positive which seems silly when we could easily have years or decades together. It wasn't the future we planned at all but at least we could be together.
I don't know what to think, I keep telling myself to focus on the here and now and think too far ahead.