Good evening everyone, just want to say to all those mums out there.. single, not single, happily married or not, lesbian, or bi the list can go on...
I am a single mum who has recently separated from my husband due to a not so nice situation but don't have to go into that and has a hard time coping with my gorgeous but somewhat tantrum, hard, attitude but gorgeous fun personality 2 year old daughter.
I have my days where I could possibly think I'm the worse mum out and that she is better off without me, feel like calling SS on me so she could have a better life cause I don't have faith in myself to make her happy and be a good parent to her. Some days I cry and think why is my life soo difficult and yeh some times I have days where they can be ok.
But after talking to someone on here and hearing their story and for once having a proper sit down and think without a crying toddler who likes to have a cry or not want to sleep or even strips down naked and sometimes likes to investigate her own poo.. I have actually got a little peace in my mind.
I came on here signing up thinking I'm a failure and no good to my daughter or anyone in fact and always been the person who basically just judges myself and lets myself down on everything or even puts myself down. Now I'm not going to say I'm not going to do in the future cause I would be lying but in small steps I'm going to try and pick myself up.
Every day I'm going to wake up knowing yes it could be a struggle but if I can make my daughter at least smile and laugh and I can show her so much love I can possibly give then that's all that matters then hopefully everything will fall into place around it in time.
What I'm saying to everyone who is going through crap, or feeling down, feeling like they are useless, horrible mum or whatever. Don't give up! Every day is different if it's a bad day today then try and make it a better day tomorrow. We can do this and never doubt yourself cause at the end of the day being a parent is bloody hard work but we created them and now it's our job to make sure they get the best life they can have whether it's a struggle or not. Do what you can, be what you can be and know that others are in your same situation and your not alone. If anyone needs someone to talk to for a rant or reassurance I'm here cause trust me I know I'm probably going through the same thing and others are too.
Anyways best get some sleep, take care all and take each day as it comes. Don't feel you are nothing cause trust me you are great and your kids know you are too. Night x