Hi,
I hope there are others out there to make me feel better! So, I hate having a label on things. Ive always known im attracted to women, I first kissed a girl when I was 12 and kissed them on and off since then, I spent the night with a girl I met in a club when I was 20......on the pretence it was a threesome with my then boyfriend, now ex husband but I couldn't stand him touching her, luckily he passed out drunk! But I then married him and had two children. Yet still kissed women during my marriage, after a few drinks and with his blessing. I have always dismissed my feelings towards women as normal and its "normal" for women to fancy other women. But maybe it isn't. Ive been single for over 3 years now and despite dating and searching I haven't met a man that I really feel anything for except a duty to be dating them. I do fancy men, definitely and I love sex with a man, but ive suddenly realise that what if the reason im not finding my happily ever after is because im looking for it in the wrong form?! What if my soulmate is a woman and im not even letting that possibility happen because im shutting down that option?! So, here I am. Smacked in the face by this realisation and both terrified and excited by it. Can I really open myself up to women, dating a woman, looking at women in that way openly...?! Please say someone else has been through this......?! xx