Hello. Apologies for posting here- I don't know quite where else to go tbh and hoping that someone here might have been through what I've been through and maybe set me off in the right direction. I won't bore you with too much detail I promise.
I'm a single mum to 3 young kids, in my mid 30's. I separated from their dad over a year ago due to his completely unreasonable behaviour. I'm happy with this situation.
I've been doing meditation etc- which just increases your awareness of well...everything! And I've had a bit of an epiphany over the summer. I think I might be more inclined towards being a lesbian than being straight. I've never had a relationship with a woman (despite always having found women more attractive than men) and am not the type to go off 'experimenting' sexually as I think that sex should be within the context of a loving relationship.
I know I sound a bit stupid. I FEEL stupid. I've got gay/lesbian friends but I don't feel like I can talk to them as they are a) younger without kids b) some of them can be a bit judgemental about other people's sexual preferences and c) what if I'm wrong?!
What I really feel I need to do is talk to someone about what is going on in my head. But I don't know where to turn to really. I'm on benefits so can't afford to see a counsellor and don't know if that is the right track to be going down anyway. I'm clutching at straws and hoping that someone here might have had a similar experience and perhaps can point me in a general direction/towards an organisation that might be able to advise me.
Thanks for reading if you got this far 