I have been married to someone 20 years older than me for almost 24 years now. im 44 in August.
He has always gone out to a pub every night since i have known him says he needs to to calm down because of the work he does long hours as a refrigeration engineer.
We never had any children he controlled this. He has two grown up kids from his first marriage.
He has never put me on the deeds and wont put my name on anything.
I am very depressed and have not worked for 18 years not because im lazy im not.
I havent seen my family properly in years. When my mum died 9 years ago he didnt even give me a hug. And the day she died he just went out for a drink as usual.
Every day he gets home from work eats then goes for a very long bath two hours or more with his phone. Gets dressed goes to pub comes home after midnight. im also sure he is taking something.
He told me if i try to divorce him he will put the house in his youngest brothers name and say he was paying him rent to live in it.
Also said he would have me and my family harmed if i did try to take any money if we did divorce.
He is very overweight and lost his front teeth a few years ago.
His family including his kids do not like me even though i have done nothing wrong to them.
What can i do?.
i feel really ill and dont want to live.