Sorry for the long post but I’m feeling desperate and if you can make it to the end I’d be grateful for any advice.
I notified HR over a year ago that I was suffering from extreme anxiety and depression likely due to peri menopause. They said I could take days off or work flexibly. I worked flexibly occasionally but attended therapy for 9 months. HR checked in with me at 6 months- I responded I was still unwell, attending therapy and trying different meds - no response from HR or contact since.
I was put on a difficult project at the end of last year. Managers have since put in writing that it was difficult and they were aware I was under a lot of pressure. I flagged this verbally several times and received no help. In writing they downplayed the pressure at the time.
I was asked to fit 140 hours of work in to two weeks (verbally but witnessed by colleague), I told them it was impossible and quality would suffer but they insisted- I panicked and started to drown in the work. Note the work wasn’t finished. Rushed to hospital 3 days later and now require surgery for a condition the doctor has said is likely caused by long working hours in a fixed position and stress.
Returned to work after 7 days and in my return-to-work meeting rather than offering support my line manager reprimanded me. Said my work on that project was below standard and not suitable for the client. She kept insisting I had left it finished. I told her I was aware I had things left to do on it and had flagged the issues several times. She told me I’d “pushed” her to tell me this (?).
A week of criticism every other day followed ending in a group email listing everything she considered I’d done wrong. She mentioned this was about learning and moving forward. I responded repeating the work wasn’t finished, I’d received no support despite telling them how stressed I was and how impossible the project was (as had another colleague). Line manager responded denying every point I raised. I had to go into a 1:1 that day with her and she started again, telling me it was all down to me, lying saying she’d offered to help. She ended this with no objectives set and saying we would draw a line under it.
Meanwhile I requested proper work equipment from HR (I work from home and was never given any) and was told home workers weren’t entitled to any and my doctor would have to write to them outlining my condition first. The only good thing my line manager did was push for this equipment but it took 2.5 weeks to arrive and I was told today by health and safety it’s not sufficient. I requested a desk risk assessment and was told they were too busy. Eventually I had to assess myself. Finally they assessed me today online and admitted they couldn’t do much if not in person. HSE says they have to do it in person.
The doctor sent them a letter stating my condition was likely due to work and stress and suddenly HR were having a meeting with my line manager. My annual review arrived stating I had met all of my targets but my work on two projects was not good enough (the first project I didn’t receive bad feedback for at the time and my manager hadn’t spoken to me about this or set objectives etc. I was told the client was happy). The second project she described as complete when I went on sick leave (contrary to what I’d told her face to face and in writing) and crap. She stated I’m not working to paid level.
I had a face to face review with her the next day and she brought her line manager. I asked at the start of this was a disciplinary or PIP and she said no, just a review. The whole meeting was along the same lines as every other interaction, lots of finger pointing, lying, interrupting me. She ended it by saying she put me on a “capability procedure”. I asked what was and she said she didn’t know and I’d have to google it or look on the intranet. She then tried to end the meeting. I stopped her and told her the company had a duty of care towards me, that she was aware of my condition, the impact of stress and had still decided to come to the meeting without the relevant information knowing I would be upset, stressed and would have no clue what had happened. I asked where duty of care had been considered which she couldn’t answer.
HR have since said it’s a PIP looking at capability and performance. Their intranet states capability is linked to disability and illness. I have worked for the last 3 weeks with no monitoring. If my work was that bad surely I shouldn’t have been unsupervised?
I think they want rid of me: HR because of possible liability and line manager because she’s quite frankly never really liked me and I named her as partly responsible.
They wanted the PIP meeting on Monday but I’ve delayed it. Should I put a grievance in? What should I expect?
I can’t work there anymore, I’m so stressed, sore and anxious, but also devastated because I loved that job and I was good at it.
Does anyone have any advice? Could direct me to a good grievance template? Is this discrimination?