I have no fight in me left

[ChocolateSiany]

I left my abusive relationship earlier this year. I had written a number of posts about the abuse. He made me drive long distances with his daughter for school runs. He was physically, sexually, emotionally, financially and all round abusive. He neglected his son and cancelled his important health appointments. I finally plucked up the courage to leave (thank you MN) but am now facing court.

We own a house together and I am not eligible for legal aid as I own a house. He still lives in this house and will not sell. I can't push a sale quick enough to raise funds for court. I am in debt but legal aid don't care. There is only 18k in the house between the two of us.

I am facing a 3-5 day fact finding. I am going to be cross examined by my abuser. I know I'm going to fall apart and I am going to be on my own. I'm so scared.

Where the hell do I go from here? I'm losing my fight

I faced 5 hours on the stand court with my exh's barrister.
Honestly op adrenaline will kick in. And the fact you know you are a good person and he is a twat.
Rooting for you.

The courts have been good so far. They've given indirect contact aka 1 photo a month for the interim. I'm just really, really scared of him. I feel sick thinking about it.

Thank you @winterdaysarehere

Have you heard of a McKenzie Friend? They can accompany you to Court to help your moral support and take notes etc. See here:

www.mckenzie-friend.org.uk

Wishing you all the best

Some courts have Support Through Court, volunteers who can accompany you to court. Similar to a McKenzie Friend.