I'm really at a loss right now. I have always been persistent, stubborn, and I don't let anyone fuck with those I love. Until about 8 months ago my ex filed and eventually was granted temp custody if our 2 children; which devastated me to the point I can't even describe and mentally I am barely keeping myself from a complete break. He has lied from the very first emergency ex parte up to the second mediation we just attended. Making me out to be an irresponsible drugged out mother that's incapable of caring for my girls. Which until he got a girlfriend he could care less and I made the majority of the decisions for them.
It recently became very clear that his girlfriend is a manipulative narcissist to the extreme. While he is very passive aggressive he is a covert narcissist but in this situation she is controlling everything. Even the messages I get are written by her and are designed to hurt me and make me think I couldn't possibly be right.
We've been through one custody trial already and I fear we may be headed for another. Which potentially means I would continue to be without my girls. He feels I need to be supervised so i am at his expense. He does not allow my kids to come inside my house(I still don't know why) and recently after my mom wrote a positive letter on my behalf he cut off all contact between her and her granddaughters. Which now means my girls are isolated from the people that love them most. He is going for an even further reduction in my visitation citing the same lies and b/s even though I have proved to the contrary.
I can't afford an attorney. I really don't know how to go about this. I have never encountered or dealt with this degree of psychological manipulation before. I fear for my children and what they're going through in that home with an evil woman that isn't their mother. They don't understand why they can't be with me. And all the while I am barely able to function day to day.