Family court loosing child to a proven abuser

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Hello I've been in and out of court just 3 weeks after given birth. I have not afforded a solictor because I had to stop working in order to support my children's emotional needs. I have shown court emails where my ex admits the sexual and physical abuse to me and my children. The courts granted community contact which I have not obeyed. Now I'm likely to have all my children split up and go to prison I'm told by my ex and courts. I have had to breast feed with my ex abuser watching me and stay in court with my young baby for 9 hours on one appearance. Cafcuss told me that the police protecting me were racist towards the father and that it basically was my fault the abuse took place. I'm writing this and can not beleive this is all really happening. I'm not sure I would believe anyone else telling me this. I have one child with this abuser and my children will all likely suffer. I get emails and letters from his solictor bullying me and she seems to find this all very amusing. Somehow the courts see me as the abuser because I'm preventing our daughter to have contact outside of a contact centre where I feel she is safe. I had a long career in the film industry and also taught at university level. My children will not understand why I have not protected them. How is this allowed to happen

Op you need to start emailing every solicitor you can. Someone will take your case and get your legal aid sorted.
You can't attend court unreprisented again.
Write a timeline of events to give you solicitor. Highlight anything of which you have evidence. Emails and texts can be used in court if presented correctly.
Take this as a kick up the arse to get more organisatised.
In the kindest way of course.
Your dc need you to do this.

I know your right and i know how this seems. I don't feel quite myself these days.

You need to get a solicitor; you cannot go on without one. No more excuses. On Monday morning, you start calling around and get some appointments, take the kids if you need too. Just get a solicitor,

It might also be worth looking into some counselling to deal with your issues; maybe women’s aid could help with that. You’ve got 4 kids by 3 different men, the most recent being conceived not long after you and this one split up. I can see how your ex might make you out as unstable or unrealiable with that information. If you’ve got no legal representation to help you, it’s hard to argue. It’s a horrible thing to say, and I’m sorry, but in court, even very normal scenarios can be used to make you look bad. Get a solicitor and get yourself some help with your mental health.

I'm a solicitor (not family law) and plenty of clients turn up with their kids. Don't worry about that at all. I definitely can't stop solicitors taking on clients or make reports go missing. No one would care who my cousin's ex is. Honestly.

You need legal representation now. That is your job for Monday. They will be on your side and they will tell you what to do.

This sounds horrendous Op, you definitely need to spend the day tomorrow finding a solicitor