Hi I'm new at this. hope I don't go on too much.
Last November was the hardest time I've ever had I went to a dark place wanting to end my life. My partner had accused me of having an affair AGAIN (I was faithful the whole relationship). I was advised to leave the family home on mental health reasons and I was not to be left alone, so I went to stay at my mothers. My youngest stayed with his dad as I was to go and 'get better'. Dad then decided to disappear for a month and not tell me the address where they were staying, he used me and my vulnerable state to sign over the tenancy on my flat or he would move over 3 hours away! he would harass me the whole time I was trying to mend myself and refused me to see my child as he needed to settle back in after being dragged from pillar to post ( on his dads doing).
since then I have come to realise he was abusing me emotionally/psychologically/financially and I did seek help in march.
having only seen my child a couple of times and returning him not to interrupt with his school work, he is a bright kid. I found out that dad had made the decision to move without informing me, so I have no idea where he is. I have not seen my child as I have apparently threatened to not return him. He stopped me seeing/speaking to my child made his number invalid as we had a huge fight as he lied about another woman but that is a different story.
I sought legal advice and was told this could only be resolved at court, while applying for legal aid and gathering the evidence I needed my solicitor started to communicate with him at the old address (he hadn't moved at that point). It took him over 2 weeks to reply, and the lies he told omg. I was to have supervised contact? due to apparent threats I had made until I found somewhere suitable to live then I could have him on alternate weekends unsupervised?
Me and my solicitor decided that this was not good enough and sent back saying that we are applying to court pending legal aid, surprise surprise no reply on that (it has been 2 months) and he had applied to court to beat me to the post it seems. CAFCASS have been in touch to do the telephone interview and I have received the report, where he again lies about my apparent threat, denies abusing me and says I get 1 phone call per week as contact and he wishes for this to continue nothing about me seeing my child at all. I do not get 1 call per week its 1 call as he sees fit and now says he stopped these on some advice as I alleged the abuse I'm not to speak to my child.
I'm fighting for my child back and hope that I will have him again as I feel like a huge part of me is missing and I can't find it.
Has anyone ever been in this situation and can offer any words of advice or encouragement? I'm going crazy not seeing my baby in 4 months because of his dad. And please no hatred I have enough of that from the ex. I haven't gone into all the details just a rough idea whats gone on if need to know anything else just ask.