I am a sufferer from mental health depression and anxiety and although stupid I don't need to be judged I yesterday made an attempt on my life I need advice on how to help myself I am being I think bullied by an ex partner which I'm ashamed of myself and it takes a lot to admit but they have access to my medical records and use the info they are gaining from my files to badger me and make me feel suicidal I don't want ppl to know what treatment I'm having (friend and family) because I'm so ashamed of what I have become but this person is directly relaying me info maroon that they would not know if they where not going to work and nosing at my files I need this to stop if I am going to get myself on the right road and altho I may be paranoid I am stating to think it would be best all round if I was successful I always thought nhs staff where empathic and this sort of thing didn't happen but I'm experiencing it and I am alone I have no place to turn this person is of good proffesioal status and I'm well not really so I'm so scared of doing anything has anyone experienced anything like this and how do I deal with it please please someone can I help myself