I've name changed for this.
I know it's illogical, this magic number of children business but I really want to have four children. I know I'll feel like my family is complete when I have four.
I've got three. My youngest is still a baby but I'd like to plan to have another within two years so she can enjoy having a sibling close in age. My others are 5 and 3.
DH thinks we can't afford it. He says that's the only reason he doesn't want to go for it. He has made the lifestyle choice of sending our dcs to private school - I wasn't very keen on this but he said that it was very important to him so I agreed even though I think it's a waste of money for primary school.
Anyway, I have said that I will go back to work to be able to pay for private school for the 4th child. I'm pretty convinced I can earn at least £10k a year in a part time role, for goodness sake. DH earns a good salary himself. How much does one have to earn to send four kids to private school?!?!?
I'm knocking on a bit now and I'm feeling really weird about the prospect of not having four children when the money shouldn't really be an issue. He pooh poohs my earning potential, saying I've got no idea.
Why do I feel this way? So wanting another baby. It'll make me really really sad if I can't have another. Has anyone else been in this position? How do you move on from it?