I don’t really know what I hope to achieve by writing on here, just someone to tell I guess. I’m currently pregnant with my 4th who was a little surprise but prior to this my husband started suffering with his mental health and drinking more. I feel like the further into the pregnancy I’m getting, the more our marriage is falling apart. He’s pushing me away as well as our 3 beautiful, young children. I’m just at a loss and desperately want our marriage to work. Thanks for reading, feels good to write it down rather than hold in the frustration. Our eldest and middle children are really starting to pick up and the tension and unfortunately we’ve argued a lot in front of them, this makes me feel deeply ashamed. I just want a happy home again!