Miserable

[AKM22]

Gosh my face is miserable when around my in-laws.
PILs are staying for an extended visitor over Christmas and I am already exhausted being around everyone. Overstimulated and I need alone space.
It's my babies first Christmas and I feel like I have to share everything with everyone

I am sorry you are feeling like this. I suggest you set up a New Year resolution to work on your boundaries. I mean it kindly

Go and get alone space. You have a young baby. It's expected you'll be fired at some point.

Tired

Are you not good with a house full? Or is it specific to PILs?
Too late to go back on the decision now .... concentrate on enjoying your baby and let the rest wash by.
It's just a day ... baby knows no difference. Try and find things to enjoy. They will be there if you look. Paste on a smile .... sometimes it generates happiness.

Thank you

I appreciate the kind replies. I just need to write this down to let it out.

I'm going on daily walks to have space and keeping busy with house work etc to look busy and make it comes across that I'm not avoiding anyone (when I am!).

I don't mean to have a face on I don't realise I'm doing it but how can I hide my exhaustion I'm 8month postpartum trying to prioritise my baby so she's settled and host PILs.
It feel so unreasonable. My husband is doing his best but it's unavoidable to spend time with his family for this any of time. The PILs come once a year. My husband needs his time with his family and they need to spend time with their grandchild.
But also I feel on the outside with everyone and tired in my own life as a new mum

You absolutely need to prioritise your wellbeing and not feel guilty about it. Feeling guilty is a women's specialty it seems. Give yourself permission to go for long walks/spend time in bed with a book and let your husband look after the baby and his parents. Nature has given a child a mother and a father for a reason. And looking after yourself will benefit your family more than anything else. Are you a perfectionist? Is it something for you to work on in the new year?