So I'm 30 and have two daughters (2 and 4). I was diagnosed with PCOS at 23 and was told I'd have difficulty having children. Luckily I have been blessed with my two girls and conceived quickly both times (trying for 5 months and 8 weeks before falling pregnant).
In January 2017 I had a very early miscarriage. The pregnancy wasn't planned and I lost it very soon after finding out.
My husband and myself stopped using contraception in May 2017 and have actively been trying for a baby since September 2017.
I have spoke to my doctor and they've basically told me, I appear to be very fertile and I would not be given any assistance or investigations to conceive and basically to be grateful with that I have and 'if it happens, it happens.
I hate that phrase and I hate sounding like I don't appreciate my girls because I absolutely worship those little ladies but I can't stop thinking about having a third.
I just can't help feeling like I'm failing my husband by not falling pregnant again as easily as last times and now we both seem a bit exhausted by it all and we seem disconnected I suppose.
How do people cope with these feelings? I'm trying hard not to over think it but I'm a worrier and do have a history of depression so I'm struggling