Wanting a 3rd with MH issues

[greenkite0]

Hopefully I've posted in the right place, when my first was born I really struggled. I had a deadbeat partner who helped with nothing and I ended up being admitted into a MH hospital for 2 months.
With my 2nd, I have changed partner and he's been brilliant but the depression and bipolar kicked in within days. She's 3 months old now and I feel like things have settled down. But I'm longing for another baby (realistically not for another 18 odd months) but I'm so scared of how to cope with possible MH returning.
I had a traumatic birth with my first and haven't recovered, a section with the 2nd and will need future sections.
Am I thinking about this too much and too soon? I'm just scared

Yes definitely thinking too far ahead. Take every day as it comes, you will feel much better soon

Don't think too far ahead. Just focus on getting to a good place.

That's what depression and aniexty does to me makes me think to far a head then became in a state of worry etc.

Best to live for now. And when the time is right make sure your not stressed etc. I have lists that help me not get worked up.

Also know your body if you need a break give yourself that.

However I would say enjoy the littleones you have it's hard with 3 here there and every where.

I have 5 and my youngest are twins that are now nearly eight and a 6 year old I feel like everything was rushed didn't really have much time for them well as much as I would of liked because of the other things I had to do like the house work and find time for the older two. Which makes me feel tight on my girls

So enjoy yourself and live for today xx