Hello everybody. I'm in a real mess. I am pregnant (planned but sort of unexpected due to my age if that makes sense) with my third. First two are 9 and 7. I always wanted three, but work, life, etc, meant it was never the right time. Last year I got accidentally pregnant and lost the baby. It sent my hormones a bit mad I think and I was desperate for another. But now that it's happened, I am utterly terrified and depressed. I am totally mortified to admit this.
Before I got pregnant I could only think of the good bits of a larger family. Now, I can only think of the bad, and keep stumbling on threads on here that talk about how hard it is, how people regret their third, etc. I am worried about my age, what other people will think/say, about the age gap with current DC, our finances, my career ... everything!
And the worst thing is because I told everybody including DH how much I wanted this, I don't feel that I can talk to anyone in real life about how I now feel I've made the very worst mistake of my life. I am past the point of no return.
Any reassurance would be so gratefully received!