Well, we have been trying for dc5 for what seems like ages with one early mc along the way.
Today I got a bfp - yay!
Today my dc's have been horrible rude little buggers, and I am thinking 'wtf - apparently I can't look after the 4 I have got!'.
They have been sooooo horrible, bickering and arguing, dd5 kicking and being foul. dd9 is really moody and nothing is ever good enough, and she complains about everything and she does not get enough attention (which to her seems to be going out on her own with a parent and spending money on lunch/cinema/shopping etc, never anything free like chatting to me in the garden)
I am so fed up, i was so wanting to have dc5, but i seem to be loosing my parenting skill, i have had the day from hell. Maybe it is the end of the summer .
We all have a lot to do and pay for before dc arrives and i am learning to drive at the moment. dh has just changed to a job he loves, but taken a pay cut.
I am just panic stricken aren't I. It will be fine, won't it . . . .
Mothers of 5 + come tell me how great it will be even when dc's are horrid and we will be skint in a small house.