Anybody else feeling sad this Christmas?

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Just that really, we have been TTC for over 4 years but this is the first Christmas that I have felt so sad and depressed at the thought of another year with no baby at such a children focused time of year 😔

Yep! Just had a failed IVF cycle so hitting an all time low. Hope you’re ok 🤗

Hugs to you lovely

it’s deffo a time of year that you just can’t help thinking what if / thinking of your angel babies

Having a quiet day just us doing whatever we enjoy - protect your heart and do whatever you find joyful xx

It's such a hard time of year to deal with infertility etc I'm very emotional today as had my 4th miscarriage at the end of October after our first round of ICSI. I hope you're able to have a nice Christmas and wishing you the best for 2025 🥳

Our child ( we miscarried ) would of been here if we hadnt had a miscarriage

Yes… it’s very hard this year. I thought we were going to be moving ahead with double donation and partner is now not sure what he wants to do. We’ve been surrounded by children (nieces and nephews), and my two SIL are both pregnant, 2 best friends are pregnant, and I just found out a third very close friend is pregnant a few days ago. I was meant to see her tomorrow but I’ve cancelled as I just can’t deal with it all. I feel so, so depressed and partner told me yesterday to “be grateful for what I have”. I’m finding it incredibly difficult to even wake up and get through a day, let alone feeling f*ing grateful.

I’m so sorry for anyone else going through this. Infertility is brutal.

Thank you so much for your kind replies @Daniki @ivfjourneyandme @puddleofpuppies @Rebekah77 @worldwidetravel2017

In some strange way, it is a little bit of comfort to know that you’re not alone. I hope you all managed to have a peaceful Christmas Day and looked after yourselves.

thank you for starting this thread. It also made me feel better to know that I’m not alone - the feeling of loneliness brought on by infertility is so hard and it’s impossible to understand unless you have been through it. I hope you managed to look after yourself on Christmas Day ❤️

Me too, OP. This is the 5th Christmas we've had since TTC with nothing to show and I've just started spotting 🙄 Currently feeling crampy and bleh and annoyed at myself for even having a little hope that this month might have been it.

Thanks for starting the thread and I hope you managed some bits of happiness this festive time despite the mindfuck that is infertility.

@puddleofpuppies i think one of the hardest things about this is the loneliness, and finding someone who truly understands. I find it really hard being around people who are pregnant, thinking this should be me! But pretty much all of my friends and my sister have all been pregnant during this time we’ve been TTC and I just feel like I have nowhere to turn for support a lot of the time.

@WildForTheNight I’m sorry to hear you’re going through that at Christmas time. I always think it will be the hope that kills me, I live my life in 2 week blocks of despair/frustration/anger/hope, and then every month when I start bleeding I think I’m such an idiot for believing this month could be any different. But I think we have to hope, it’s the only way through this!