Hello all
Just thought I would share my story.
Had vaginismus officially diagnosed about 2 years ago. A very, very anxious period.
My partner was wonderfully understanding and great throughout with zero pressure.
I always put off my smear test. Just found the though of gentilas absolutely disgusting always. Yuk.
Anyway, went to private IVF clinic and it was during the internal scan where it just wouldn't go. At all. The nurse placed loads of lube and couldn't help but burst into tears. I told her to try again because I travelled an hour to the clinic and was so worked up about this procedure that I didn't want to go through it again.
The nurse called another nurse to hold my hand and was in tears and just said it was too painful. It just wouldn't go in. One of the nursed was a retired gynaecologist and told me that she used to prescribe dilators to women who had difficulty.
So bought the dilators.
Come in a pack of 8 different sizes. The small is the size of the smallest finger. I got lube and tried it and it wouldn't go in. I read about relaxing exercising and tried and nothing. I put the Tele on for distraction and was just so panicky. I was so tensed up that nothing worked. About 2 later it went it. Felt great. Over the next few months continued and finally went to dilator number 6 very comfortably. Number 7 and 8 are just a ridiculous size so was not bothered.
Went for my next internal scan a year later and it was a breeze. I did ask if I could insert the internal device myself so I could do my breathing exercises whilst inserting.
However, my smear test was so painful.
Currently on my IVF journey.
Just thought I would share as reading everyone's stories throughout the process helped me soo much.