Estrogen FET - is it normal to be so depressed

[LolaBumble]

I think the estrogen is really messing with me.

I have a beautiful daughter from a previous cycle of IVF and now we are trying for number two.

Since starting the cycle it has been weighing really heavily on my about bringing another life into this world. Since starting I’m not actually am not sure this is what I want. I want to give my daughter a sibling more than anything. But I have been thinking a lot about how we all eventually die and what’s the point. But I dont want my daughter to be alone.

None of these thoughts are normal for me. Had anyone experienced similar?? I don’t know if it’s the estrogen or I’m having these thoughts because we are potentially about to bring another life into this world.

I thought I would be feeling excited, I was last time.

Have you checked what the side effects of the estrogen medication is?
If the depression is new for you, I would advice phoning your clinic and letting them know, they might be able to switch you to a different medication, or offer some counselling/support.

As you say, these thoughts aren't normal for you, you have obviously been thinking and planning to have another child, so it sounds like it's side effects of the medication.

From my experience on IVF medication, I really suffered with depression, thoughts of hopelessness and feeling like I wanted to end my life. My clinic did offer counselling, and I really had to battle the thoughts for several weeks. It was totally unlike me to have such a depressive episode, and I wish I had been forewarned! As soon as we had the embryo transfer it was like the mist lifted and I was back to normal.

Thank you for your reply! Sorry you went through such a difficult time. Reassuring to hear you felt back to normal after the embryo transfer. Going in for a scan tomorrow, actually thinking about ending the cycle, feel that I am in such a dark place.

Definitely mention how you are feeling when you go in for a scan tomorrow. They should be much better at giving advice xx