I have psychosis and depression. I'm medicated for both as well as hypothyroidism.
I really wanted to be a mother. Recently i have been diagnosed with hypothyroidism as result of the weight gain from the antipsychotic i am on. I also have high prolactin and high testosterone.
Dispite this i have no sex drive at all and am tired all of the time. I feel like my life is nothing but a mistake.
I am having a transvaginal ultrasound to see if my uterus and ovaries are working properly.
I feel as though i have nothing truly to live for. For these reasons its highly unlikely ill be able to have kids now.
Im 25 and my periods have become irregular and i am struggling with depression jealousy suicidal thought over not being able to have a baby of my own. I get jealous when I see other people's kids and I feel like my chance was taken from me caused by my medication.
I also feel too fat and ugly to find a partner who would be willing to deal with me and the fact of my non existent sex drive.
Coming off my medication is impossible now because I have been on it for so long. It would cause my body and mind a HELL of alot of damage to come off plus the fact that my illnesses would probably come back with a vengeance.
It also wouldn't be fair on my baby to pass this on to them.
I just wish I was normal tbh. I feel useless.