Hello lovely people.
Will try and keep it short and sweet.
-TTC #2 since Dec 2023/Jan. Started tracking using OPK in Feb and getting more serious about it
- Early loss in Spring
- Just turned 37, DS is 5
- I paid privately for bloods and scans. All normal
- Trying to lose weight, take vitamins don't drink or smoke
- I have a diagnosed autoimmune issue, Graves Disease, but all under control and I am off medication as I completed my treatment plan and am now optimal. consultant gave green light for ttc.
I am just becoming ground down with this now. I don't feel I can talk to anyone properly IRL because most people close to me have announced their pregnancies in the time I have been TTC or have small babies. I have hidden it from most people, I show up as a good friend and throw them baby showers etc make them feel special and celebrated but now inside I am starting to really hurt.
I feel incredibly blessed to already have a beautiful child so I also struggle with guilt that I feel such a way about having another when I know there are others at the start of their journey. I know I am very lucky.
I don't really like who TTC has made me. I don't want to be envious of others, it's genuinely not in my nature. I didn't want to get like this, but it seems to of just crept over me. It makes me feel really out of control and not a shadow of the happy bubbly person I was.
So WWYD or did you do? Further treatment? Time limit? Just keep going? I am at a point where I think coming up to a year I need to do something further but don't know what.
Thank you for reading xx