Three failed rounds - time to call it? (TTC #2)

[BeElatedHazelQuoter]

Our DS was born as a result of IVF, and when he turned one we started trying again.

The first two rounds ended with no embryos and the third round had slightly better results (2 embryos, one didn't make it to freeze and the other was a fresh transfer that ended in MC).

DH is ready to call it. Financially he's not opposed to paying for one last single attempt (they sent me a plan with new meds) but emotionally I think he just wants to know what our life is going to look like now and stop living in the world of drugs/tests/uncertainty.

I'm more on the fence and keep going back and forth. I feel slightly optimistic about a last round simply because it's new meds, but also am tempted to just call it quits while it's still "my" choice and focus on DS, who has been taking a backseat these past months while I'm struggling through stims and retrievals.

I just don't know what to do. I picture a simpler life as one-and-done where we can travel earlier, both be more present for DS and he never has to fight for attention. We also had a terrible time during his first year with colic and its tempting to know we won't be there again. But part of me wants to be there again. I hate that infertility puts us in the position of having to make decisions like this.

@BeElatedHazelQuoter sorry to hear how you're feeling and your experience. If you don't mind me asking how old you are and what are your circumstances regarding needing IVF? I, too, have been having similar thoughts on when the cut off point is to draw the line in the sand, I've just had a FET which is looking like its failed and I'm quite a reflector and forward planner. Although we have frozen embryos to still go through I am (in my very nature as a planner) thinking what our options are should those transfers also fail and on that basis considering a 5th egg collection (I'm 38 so time is of the essence and I'd want to do it sooner rather than later if needed). But of course at some point I'll have to stop and to be honest I'm already thinking I'm looking forward to the day when this chapter is concluded one way or the other, as it all so consuming and stops you truly living and enjoying life.

Its a personal decision but just wanted to reply to say I understand, its a tough path with many cross roads along way. What you don't want to do is have any regrets, so hope you come to a decision that works in that respect. Good luck with it all.

@Sunflower360 thanks so much for the understanding! I'm 35, we started the most recent rounds when I was 34 (unexplained infertility).

I'm so tempted to just do this last round now that I've seen the protocol, but it's even more pressure and both DH and I are gradually getting used to the idea of being OAD