At 45 I was fine with never having kids, then met a (younger) man who reawakened the desire. Eventually I thought, bugger it, let's roll the dice, just in case... And got pregnant straight away. I was blown away.
Miscarried at 7 weeks, just before 46th birthday. I can't describe the sadness. But, possibly worse, it gave me hope. It defied all odds, maybe I was still more fertile than I should be... Took another 6 months but fell pregnant again. Miscarried at 5 1/2 weeks. Just been to a fertility clinic to ask whether IVF with PGT-A would realistically give me much chance. Nope, they rate my chances at around 5% tops. I'm in Spain which is massive on egg donation so they try to push you down that route but I'm not convinced about a) morality of creating child who will never know genetic mother, b) whether I'd always think it was 'not mine'.
Adoption isn't an option as I live a bit of a nomadic lifestyle which doesn't fit with what social services would look for. (plus, time..)
We're both heartbroken right now and don't know what to do or how to accept this. Tempted to go ahead with a cycle of IVF anyway "just incase miracle", but pretty sure it'd be throwing money down the drain and hugely stressful. Any advice from anyone who's been in a similar situation?? Any point in proceeding??