Just got our day 5 update on our embryos - we started with 5 eggs on egg retrieval, we had 3 fertilize and then make it to day 3, and today only 1 is an early blast so we're giving it another day to hopefully develop well enough to freeze 🤞 gutted, particularly because I've been really stressed about male factor this round. I'm 33 low AMH and have been getting 1-2 eggs per cycle and doing everything I can to increase egg quality for months and months. I was egg freezing before, but this was our first attempt at starting to embryo batch. So getting 5 this cycle was SO good in comparison!
The thing is my partner's BMI has increased significantly recently, and he has been pretty lax on his exercise regimen lately and not particularly eating well or taking any supplements. I've been trying to encourage him to do his part to prepare just in case, since I've been hitting it so hard and time is of the essence for me AND this whole thing is just so freaking expensive so why not give it our all?? But the urgency and seriousness hasn't really been landing with him - I assume because he hasn't been the one injecting himself daily, nor told that time is running out for him?
Anyway, I'm trying SO hard not to 'blame' today's poor development on him, but I think I'm just so hurt that it feels like all my efforts and good luck this cycle were wasted because my partner wasn't holding up his end. 😭 I know that's probably SO not fair, so if anyone could help debunk this fear or share anything comforting from truly any angle at all (lol) that would be great ❤️ tysm all