2 eggs fertilised - looking for hope

[Blacksheep33]

Title says it all really!

First round I was 33. We got 6 eggs, 4 mature and fertilised, only 2 looking ok at day 3. Transferred both - BFN.

2nd round. 34. We got 10 eggs. All mature, 7 at day 3 looking good. Only 1 blast on day 5 - BFP (my miracle DS).

3rd round. 37. 4 eggs. 2 fertilised. Not sure whether to try a day 3 transfer (if either survive until then) or just write off this round.

Background - I have low amh as a result of previous ovarian surgery. We have MFI.

didn’t respond well to stims this time, had eggs growing at uneven rate and I think the clinic left it too long to trigger (they were hoping the smaller ones would catch up but actually I think we lost the 2 biggest). But also, I’m now older and just don’t think we will find that ‘lucky’ egg.

ivf just sucks. It’s such a lottery and can’t afford to keep buying tickets!

love to all going through this

Hi - I had 3 egg collections before my transfer and results below:
1st EC - 6 eggs collected with 1 day 3 and 1 day 5 frozen
2nd EC - 4 eggs collected 1 day 3 frozen
3rd EC - 2 eggs collected 1 day 3 transfered fresh and 1 day 5 frozen
Consistently my egg collections produced fewer eggs. But I am now 20 weeks pregnant with day 3 from my last cycle.
Fewer eggs can mean better quality. And it really only takes one!
Also I am 36 years :)
Wishing you lots of luck xxxx

Thank you so much for your response! It’s really hard to stay positive with such small numbers especially as not getting to day 5 means I really don’t know about the quality of any embryos we make now/in the future.

And congratulations on your pregnancy 😊 it’s so nice to hear a happy ending xx

Clinic called today to say we have 1 x 7 cell day 3 with some fragmentation and 1 x 9 cell day 3 with no/very minimal fragmentation.

they advised to to keep growing them until day 5 - the rationale being that if they didn’t make it to blast, they wouldn’t have survived inside me, and if they transfer 1 now they may transfer the ‘wrong’ one which could mean no pregnancy and paying for a better embryo to be frozen, risking it defrosting for transfer etc etc.

im not sure this is the right decision as my previous stats would tell us that none will make it to blast. The clinics view was that if that’s the case, my day 3 transfer would have failed but I can’t help thinking that the embryo(s) would be better off inside me than not.

such hard decisions and the waiting is terrifying

@Blacksheep33 that's so tough for you.
I was lucky that both mine were exactly same grade so there wasn't much of a choice to be made.
I definitely agree that I feel like I would rather try inside me than the dish but it's just so hard.
I wish I could have just known the outcome of it all before going through it. Xxx

Thanks so much for responding. I guess all I can do is keep my fingers crossed and hope but god this ivf stuff is tough. I totally agree that it’s the not knowing the end outcome which is just so hard - if someone said to me ‘it’ll take 3 rounds but then it will work’ I could absolutely put myself through that (finances permitting!!) but it’s the idea of going and going with no idea if I am in with a shout or what the outcome will be xx

So one of my two embryos made it to day 5! A 4BB (5BB a couple of hours later when it was transferred). The stress of not knowing if any had reached day 5 when I went into the clinic today was something else! So now ‘just’ for the 2WW 🤯p

@Blacksheep33 Aww that's amazing you made it to transfer!!
How are you feeling?
Wishing you all the luck in world xxx

Thank you so much. Just feeling very grateful to have something to transfer (cried at 3 points this morning when assumed we didn’t) and to have some hope that maybe we can get an embryo across the line in future rounds! Not feeling particularly hopeful about the transfer itself just because I feel like the odds are always stacked against you aren’t they? Xx

@Blacksheep33 I know exactly what you mean. You want it so badly and that makes the stress more.
Try and take it easy as best you can! Xxx