Hello,
I am wondering if anyone has gone through something similar to me and has had a happy ending?
We have been TTC for the past 4 years and have had two miscarriages. One at 7 weeks with early bleeding and another at 7 weeks MMC, which we only detected as I had no pregnancy symptoms asked GP for an early scan who refused so had a private scan which detected MMC. The private scan also confirmed a cyst on my right ovary which was not consistent with ovulation. I was then referred to hospital for a D&C who insisted that the cyst was due to ovulation.
After 8 months of TTC after second miscarriage I went to GP asking for tests to be done, which they refused so again paid for tests which showed unusual hormone levels. Took these back to the GP who told me to come back after TTC for 18 months (as we have conceived twice before). Heartbroken and starting to become very low now I did more research and found a private gynaecologist who might be able to help, however needed a GP referral even though I would be paying for treatment. My GP said no, so in desperation I called the PA of the private place crying desperate for just an appointment, that I would pay for. They agreed and finally felt like someone would listen to me. She asked a few questions and then said I may have scarring of the uterus due to the two previous D&C procedures. This can cause infertility if untreated and treatment for this would be removal of the scarring. Of course my GP would not entertain this until we had been trying for 18 months, and then the waiting list for the operation to remove the scars would likely be longer. So we scraped together the money for the operation to go ahead privately, not 100% sure if I did have scarring but that is how desperate I had become by now.
The Hysteroscopy found dense adhesions almost completely obstructing the entrance to the uterus and I was SO relieved not only that they were able to remove the scarring but that we had not wasted the most money we have ever spent on anything! We were told we should hopefully be able to conceive again soon.
It has now been 5 months since my operation and still nothing, I am beginning to loose hope now. I have no interest in my hobbies or going out anymore, I find it very upsetting even going to do the food shop and seeing mums with their kids in the aisle and end up in my car crying. Family members are having babies and I avoid going to family occasions now as they just don’t understand the pain i am in.
Spoke to my GP about counselling and got to the assessment stage for baby loss counselling. I was rejected as I still technically have the ability to conceive, so they would not see me. They have suggested anti-depressants but I don’t want to take anything that could harm my potential of conceiving. I just feel like everything is against me.
Sorry for the complete life story and essay! Just hoping to speak to someone or if there is someone out there with a positive ending? Thank you for listening X