I have one child at nearly 16 and I have wanted another child for the last 10 years, but it has never been right as I needed IVF and wanted to be in a secure family unit as I was a single parent for a long time with my daughter
So, my husband has a number of children only one who he sees that doesn't like me at 15 and she falls out with my daughter which causes problems, but I have to bite my tongue and let her still come to our home making me and my daughter feel uncomfortable
My husband has a low sperm count and takes steroids which he will not stop and just been told after a year of waiting for results and tests to be done that unless he comes off steroids, we cannot go through IVF using his sperm, he will not do this, so I am left that if I want a child, I need to use a sperm donor
I do not think he wants a child with me, and he only seems to be bothered about his family and his daughter, even though he calls my daughter his but it's still not the same
We have not been great for a while as he is very selfish and only cares about himself, says he wants to do everything for his daughter but doesn't
He says he wants a child with me, but I am not convinced, I am left in limbo now thinking it will always hold over me he cannot give me what i want to make me happy, even a sperm donor he will throw it in my face the child is not his as he is like that, I do not know whether to leave or stay in a situation where I am still not happy
Has anyone been in a similar situation