I'm really struggling with the feeling that, if I start treatment, things will go wrong. I wondered if anyone else ever felt anything like this? I keep really struggling, because I really want to try for a baby, but I am also scared of getting hurt again. I find myself making silly excuses not to go through the stages to get treatment, and at the same time I am kicking myself for wasting more time.
I've been TTC on and off for more than ten years. Initially it was quite casual, as you'd expect. Later on I had a run of miscarriages and started to worry a bit. Then my lovely DP gave birth to our daughter. After that I tried IUI a couple of times, but didn't fall pregnant, and I had to have surgery of my ovary. I'm nearly 38 now, so I know I should really get on with it. But I am so frightened of miscarrying again. And I am also frightened other things might go wrong. Basically I seem to be imagining catastrophes everywhere. I'd love to know if anyone else relates to this, or if you have any helpful advice on how to move past it!