What TF is the whole world pregnant but me!

[StickyToffeePudding85]

Ok mainly a rant but I need to get this off my chest -backstory- I'm almost 37 so I feel like time is running out they all say fertility drops after 35! I got married 10 years ago and came off the pill 2 years later! I've been pregnant 3 times-1 chemical, 2 boys both ended at 13 weeks-please don't say"at least you know you can get pregnant! it's not helpful!
My latest loss was 2019 and haven't had a hint of a BFP since!
My main rant is I go the hairdressers guess what the two I usually see are both pregnant and chatting to each other about what they're gonna do on their maternity leave! I meet some friends and others I know to say hi to but don't know really well- all pregnant, my exercise class -one member and the teacher are both pregnant, I have a family member who is pregnant then I go on social media and all I see is pregnancy announcements or people announcing their rainbow babies or people ranting about their kids coz it's the 6 week holidays!
I feel so jealous when I see people with a baby bumps and I feel like they're all smug coz they're pregnant and I want to be (I know it's probably in my head)!
My friend was on the implant and got accidentally pregnant!
Please tell me I'm not alone feeling like this anyone got coping strategies I feel like TTC is taking over my life I feel like I can't tell anyone in RL and the comments are driving me nuts!! We're in the process of investigations my DH doesn't want to try IVF (think he's worried about my sanity) and we don't feel like adoption is for us but please help!!!

@StickyToffeePudding85 have you had any talking therapy? This is obviously very emotionally draining for you and you have been through significant losses. My concern is constantly feeling like rubbish isn't going to help you get pregnant but it will have a massive impact on your mental health. And the stress can only harm your physical health. I'm having CBT and would recommend it if you haven't tried it.

I feel you. I just went to a baby shower - friend who got pregnant super easily. I'm going to another one next month for a friend who got pregnant by accident and had a shotgun wedding. Almost everyone I know around my age has had a baby or is expecting.

I think the problem is that when you get to mid-thirties, everyone is ready to do the parent thing at the same time. Unfortunately sometimes people can be insensitive and disregard your situation in their 'joy'. I also think some women can be downright show offs. Like they think DTD and getting pregnant first time makes them a super fertile high achiever lol. Good for them, but maybe don't throw it around when someone who has struggled to get pregnant for years is around.

Ugh ignore the comments going on about how you’ve been pregnant. I’ve had infertility for 18 months and I’d rather that then go through the highs and lows of miscarriage. I’m so so sorry for your loss.

Im lucky that for me it’s secondary infertility. I promise on my life I did absolutely nothing different with my first kid and it happened and suddenly this time I’m still nowhere. And yeah, so many pregnancies. Multiple babies in between since we started.

Thanks for replying guys you really are helping -CBT sounds like a good shout I'll look into this! Can't see I'm going to get pregnant naturally and my DH is still not keen on IVF so might have to be realistic and accept I'm not going to be a parent so therapy is probably the best route for me to try and accept this! Xx