Apologies if posting here is not the right thing to do but I am getting desperate.
6 cycles in to TTC my second baby and three early miscarriages under my belt already.
Had none of this the first time around (fell first time we tried).
I was convinced it was breastfeeding my 18m old that was the issue so I stopped about 5 weeks ago but now my blood tests have come back showing I may have a slightly under active thyroid - TSH 2.86 and family history of thyroid issues. I really thought stopping breastfeeding would solve the issue so I am a bit gutted that this is a new battle to have with the doctors to ask for medication - as my thyroid levels are within the normal range but apparently from my reading slightly too high to maintain a pregnancy.
It just feels never ending. Since starting TTC we've just been miserable. The highs of positive tests followed by the bleeding three times over. I feel like I failed my son by stopping feeding and maybe that wasn't even the issue after all.
I just want to be happy. And pregnant. And not consumed by this.
I feel this absolute panic that no2 just won't happen for us.
I don't want to talk to anyone, socialise, I'm being mean to my husband, very low motivation to do anything except sit and worry and google and wish I was pregnant.
Any words of advice for me? It's ovulation week next week. Part of me wants to try the other part says wait a few months to let my cycle sort itself out (I had a short luteal phase of 8/9 days while breastfeeding so hoping that's sorted itself out now I have stopped for over a month).
I'm 35 so don't feel I have loads of time.
Anyone else in my boat? :-(