So it took me a long time to find my husband I’m an older lady that is now expecting. My husband was in a very abusive relationship and had a vesectomy after abusing parter insistence plus my step sons emotional and physical abuse at the hands of this person.
we have paid for all of our treatments, I have never had a baby previously and wanted to have a child. We now because of no help from nhs apart from initial tests are in some significant debt from fertility despite help from family. If we had not had to spend the money privately we would be in a much better position financially to support our baby on the way. Instead I find myself phoning debt charities to ask for help to buy baby stuff.
I can not help feel upset that I feel that I’m being punished for waiting to become a mother and also envious that others have the opportunity to have three rounds of ivf and even though I hadnt given birth. I love my stepson like my own and feel guilty for wanting to give birth. I met him when he was a teenager and would of loved to have met him sooner so I could of helped him with life and his trauma from his birth mother. He was conflicted by his love for his mum and the hatred because of what she did to him throughout his early years of life. He was always worried about his brothers and sisters that were still with her.
I am now looking into financial help due to bill of infertility but find there is none for our situation.