Ivf / Icsi May 2022

[RoseWrites]

I'm starting ICSI on 2 May and wondered if anyone else is starting at a similar time? I found this forum so helpful the first time around in 2017 and would love to chat to those going through it too :)

@RoseWrites thanks so much for asking!
How are you getting on? I have everything crossed that you reply to say the lines keep getting darker ❤️
I have started stims just last Friday, first time so all brand new to us. I ice my tummy and my partner injects me, even our cat sits to watch to make sure he is doing it right.
I have found I feel we’re so much closer because of what we’re going through, like we know we have each other’s backs etc etc.

when I had my scan last Thursday (baseline during bleed) I came away feeling really positive. They said lining was as thin as it needed to be and she counted up my follicles and said that everything looked perfect. Happy with how they looked and the number. She said not to get fixated with numbers though inc my age but did say everything was really good 👍

tbh the way she was has really helped me to be more level headed, I’m a bit all or nothing and due to stats I have received for women of 44 I had been thinking it’s not going to work, not helpful so I’m just hoping and praying we get what we want.

I have started using the yuka app to try and use clean products and have swapped a lot of cleaning and washing powders for cleaner products after reading it starts with an egg.

i have another scan this Friday to check how stims have worked and more scans
next week I would think before I have collection. Not sure how long I’ll be on stims for? IM on ovaleep and suprecar atm.

How long do the injections need to be taken in your experience? Appreciate we’re all different.

Xxx

@Icamehere4love my doctor said the average number of days for stims was 10-14 with the most common being about 12. I had to take them for 11 days.

@RoseWrites Any updates? I've been thinking about you and crossing my toes and fingers. It's funny how the calm just kind of settles all over you once it's done and there's nothing you can really do isn't it?

@Icamehere4love and @Rtmhwales Thanks so much for asking :) But I think it's over for us :( I had v. faint positives on Friday, and Saturday, and then it got darker on Sunday (i.e you could see it without having to squint down a microscope!) But then today and yesterday absolutely nothing. I have to admit that I feel completely crushed and broken.

Our OTD isn't until Saturday, but last time I was getting v. clear lines now and they got stronger and stronger. The fact that the line got stronger and now has vanished makes me think it was a chemical pregnancy.

My husband is trying to be positive, but I just know in my gut. And to be honest, I think I knew this wasn't going to work as soon as we started. I had hoped that was self-preservation, but now I think I just knew!! :)

How are you doing @Rtmhwales ?

And I love your attitude @Icamehere4love :) the cat sounds like a good supporter :)

Love to you xx

@RoseWrites Oh that breaks my heart. There's something so horrible about a chemical pregnancy. I think I cried harder over that one than my two miscarriages because it was like a beacon of hope being offered and then snatched away so suddenly. It's even worse with IVF. My doctor told me that once we do the transfer I shouldn't test until the blood test but I'm shit at not knowing and have already bought FRERs when my transfer is at least a month away.

Why is fertility so heartbreaking? I feel like everyone around me/us is pregnant. It's helpful to come here and have others know what we are going through but it's so shitty any of us are in this boat. I'm still dreading the transfer and the cost and hoping it works and the anxiety. Hopefully soon we all have a baby in our arms. This is soul crushing.

@RoseWrites I'm so sorry, it's gut wrenching and going through IVF intensifies everything so much more

@Rtmhwales so many pregnancy announcements around us too!! If this round doesn't work for us then it will be a he'll of a long time before we can save to try again 😭

@Rtmhwales thanks lovely. Its so heartbreaking. I really had hoped that the BFPs were real. I cried and cried yesterday (and have given myself a headache!). Today I feel as flat as a pancake but calmer. I'm so sorry you've been in the same boat.

@ChristmasJumpers thank you xx And I hear you on the money front. My husband is trying to remortgage our house (again) so we have £6k to go again. It makes me so angry and sad that we have to do that with no guarantees... God only knows if we can't remortgage or if we do get the money but then we have to go AGAIN

I tested this morning and I'll test every morning until OTD on Saturday. I don't want the bloody tests in my house anymore. Although I feel like I'm about to get my period so maybe I'll just chuck them in the bin!

Today is a new day :)