I will try and keep this short. I am now 38 and after years of TTC, I feel we are now out of options.
After conceiving naturally very quickly with DH, we were devastated when it ended in MMC at 12wk scan.
We then realised although we hadn’t discussed previously, we now wanted a baby more than anything the world. After a break to deal with our loss, we actively tried to conceive again and I mean tried all the tricks in the book but nothing happened.
We started our IVF journey and it turned out to be pretty smooth- good health generally, good egg reserve and no sperm issues. We opted for freeze all cycle and got 7 blasts. After transferring our first embryo, we were delighted it had worked and got pregnant on first attempt.
I had some early bleeding but that settled down after 12 weeks and things progressed ok until at 28 weeks when they suspected I was starting to develop preeclampsia. After what I am told was a very difficult 3 days,
our little Angel was delivered via c-section and bubba was moved to the NICU. He was very tiny but a little fighter.
The had difficulty in controlling the bleeding after C-section and I woke up in ICU 7 days later to be told I’d been given a hysterectomy.
I went a saw my Angel and 2 weeks later was told he had a condition that needed surgery but because he was still small they would wait. To cut a long and horrifying story short, the surgery was done later down the line and we lost our little bundle of joy. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore, I feel like a part of me is missing.
We are both getting help, but nothing really helps. IYGWIM.
We are broken but have 6 good embryos left and not sure what to do.