I'm 8dp5dt and I'm so sad. It was my dc bday yesterday and i felt sad then, I think it was more that another year has gone by where we haven't conceived them a brother or sister. The gap just keeps getting bigger and bigger, the best part of a decade.
Don't get me wrong I'm so so grateful for them every single day but I'd be lying if I said it doesn't hurt, especially when they ask when we're going to have another baby.
Last night I dreamt about a friend who is due anyday now, it's just made me sad. And I feel selfish for feeling that way.
I just can't shake the feeling that this fet hasn't worked again 😢😢