I'll start by saying I am very lucky to have a beautiful 3.5year old son. However, I've been ttc baby no.2 for 2 years now. I am under fertility, have been diagnosed with PCOS. But, in order to have some help I was told to loose weight as my BMI is too high. I've lost 3 stone and need to loose another 7lb to be at an acceptable bmi.
I guess I'm writing this post because I thought this month was going to be different. I try so hard not to symptom spot every month but I can't seem to help it! This month I felt sure I'd concieved- I had sore boobs and some strange twinges. I just felt different. However, today AF has showed up. I don't know why after 2 years of trying I feel so upset, I've got used to the disappointment. I so want for my son to have a sibling.
Whatever the reason, I feel particularly low, deflated, lonely and emotionally exhausted by it all.
Anyway, I don't know what I hope to achieve by posting this. Perhaps, it'll just help to know I've shared how I'm feeling. Sorry for the long post and thanks for reading.