Is it the progesterone or is it intuition?

[eastofeden86]

Hi all,

I’m on my 2nd FET cycle and had 2 5 day blastocysts transferred last Thursday. I was doing quite well this cycle and keeping pretty positive, but now I feel so, so down and hopeless. I’m almost sure I’ve rejected the embryos - I got a weird scratchy throat out of nowhere the day after transfer that lasted a few hours then completely disappeared. Had the same thing last cycle but a few days later. I’m sure it’s my immune system killing the embryos.

I know being on sh*tloads of progesterone probably isn’t helping my mood but I feel completely despondent. Is anyone else feeling/felt like this?

Hi @eastofeden86

Firstly I definitely don't think it's intuition. Your sore throat could easily be explained by many any other things, eg did you sleep with your mouth wide open all night, was your mouth dry because you were nervous, is it a side effect from meds... It is definitely not a sign that your body is attacking the embryo.

It's hard to know if the progesterone is making things worse, I find hormone medications in general don't help any emotional situation.

I also felt this lull after my transfers in the past, neither of which were success but I don't think it was to do with that, I think there is just so much going on that emotions are often all over the place. I'm gearing up for a transfer this Friday and feeling really anxious and I'm sure it will continue after the transfer. Having been on these boards for a while I can't see any association between described symptoms/lack of symptoms and success, so try not to read too much into things. Congrats on being PUPO by the way

Hi @Gardenlady543, thank you for replying and for reassuring me. Feeling a bit better this evening. Everything crossed for your transfer on Friday x

Hi @eastofeden86 the weeks post transfer are just bloody awful and it's impossible not to analyse every little thing. My first IVF cycle I just knew it hasn't worked and I was right (chemical). My second I was even more certain. I was even ranting about how unfair it was to make me even take a test. And I was pregnant with my DD. There is no such thing as instinct with these things. We just remember when our "instinct" has been right and forget when it was wrong.

I've had every IVF result possible: chemical, successful pregnancy, miscarriage and BFN. I have had a sniffle post transfer with all of them but the results have all been different.

I think the emotions are caused partly by the progesterone but also just from the pressure of the situation. What we are going through is hugely traumatic and we continually brush that aside as we push forwards trying to get that baby. But sometimes all that anxiety bubbles up...and the 2WW is a classic time for that. Be nice to yourself and do whatever you need to get through it.

I really hope it works out for you. Best of luck xxx

Thanks for your comment @Janefx40 - you’re right, this period is such a mindf*ck! I’ve gone from crying all the time to feeling really quite good in 24 hours! Urgh rollercoaster. Good to hear that from your perspective there’s no way of knowing. My husband is saying the same thing and rationally I know that’s true, but when you’re on such high alert it’s hard not to read into every little thing. I still kind of think I’m not but I guess I’ll find out properly on Monday with the blood test.

Thanks again for your kind words, it’s really helpful to talk to people who know what’s it’s like x

@eastofeden86 hi there! I had my first fresh 5 day transfer on Sunday and I'm already driving myself mad with when to test and the cramping I keep feeling. I know that's a good sign but you just don't know do you. I also had a sore throat, but the day after and it went the next day! When's your otd? Mine is 17th June but I don't think I can last that long! May test on the 15th 😬

Hey @notyetamumbuttrying, Congrats on your first transfer! I’m having some cramps too but can’t decide if they’re really cramps or I’m manifesting them into being!

My blood test is on Monday 14th. Already dreading it! I’m trying not to test early but if I do cave I won’t do it before Friday or Saturday.

Thinking positive thoughts for both of us

@eastofeden86 positive thoughts all round! Best of luck for the weekend and Monday! 🍀