Just feeling a bit sad today. need comfort from others that feel the same.
I am the youngest of 7 grandkids on both sides of my family. So as you can imagine by the time it got to me all the novelties had worn off, i never got to do anything first. Between my 10 cousins and one sibling they have 20 kids aged from 20 to 2. My DH has 4 cousins and one sibling all similarly aged and none have kids yet.
We were the only ones at the stage to have kids and always knew we'd need IVF due to my DH's childhood cancer. We had intended to try first time in Sept but as we all know the IVF route is long with lots of unnecessary delays. We are hoping to finally go for our first transfer in May/June time.
DH's eldest cousin is getting married next month and obv doing something small due to CV19. Her parents were here yesterday for socially distanced visit and said they had originally planned to maybe do something bigger but probably won't as they want kids soon and that'll take over.
I've always had the dream of having the first great grandchild on that side of the family and everyone making a huge fuss of the baby and doting on it. i know i sound really awful and selfish but i just wanted to be first to do something for once. it's hard enough giving up the dream of ever TTC naturally. now i am worried i'm gonna have to give this up too.
I'm being silly i know. just wanted to rant