So I’ve NC for this one. I’m not going to go into too much detail but anyways, me and my husband have been trying to conceive for nearly 2 years now, after the 1 year mark we went to get some investigations done and found out I have PCOS and because of the pandemic and other things we havent really got further than that but I don’t ovulate by myself and so the GP says they are going to refer to fertility clinic which could take a while. I’m really struggling with it and have had such a hard time (I know there’s women in a lot worse positions than me) but mentally it’s been tough. I’d told my parents about all this and how hard I was finding it, onto the point in the post. At 2 mins to midnight on New Years my dad (who I don’t have the greatest relationship with) rings me to tell me that I’m going to be an auntie, and proceeds to go onto tell me how my sister got pregnant first try (literally first month, she’s been with her boyfriend 6 months and baby was planned) and how he can’t wait to be a grandad, and continues proper rubbing it in saying he’s very proud of her, going to make a room in their house for baby, yada yada, I spend the whole phone call trying not to cry, I then have a full on meltdown after coming off the phone. I know it’s selfish but I don’t want to be an aunt I want to be a mum. I literally can’t even speak to my sister or family because I don’t want to hear anything about the baby and have taken a wide berth since (I normally speak every day) how do I get over this? Like over the hurt? I don’t know I just can’t even cope and every time I think about it I want to cry. I feel broken and just shit, I feel guilty for feeling bitter. Anyone been in the same situation and have found a way to ‘get over it’?