In December 2013, I lost my unborn baby at 16 weeks pregnant. Honestly, I don't think I've fully recovered from it but when my husband and I got our home last January, we decided it was time to try again.
We've been actively trying since last January now. That's 19 months and, still, nothing.
In March this year, we had a letter to say we had finally been referred for treatment to help us to conceive, but with Covid-19 our appointment has been postponed. I work at the hospital where we'd be getting treatment, and it kills me seeing pregnant women and happy couples leaving the department on a daily basis.
It's a constant waiting game, and I truly feel like it's starting to kill me. I'm angry all the time, I'm so deeply sad that it hurts my heart. I just don't know what to do anymore.
All I get is 'relax, don't stress and it'll all work out' from people, whether I know them or not. But what help is that, really?
Sorry, I just didn't really know where else I could talk.