Micro - Grieves 😢

[Blankspace4]

After several failed rounds of IVF and a tube-less me meaning having a family looks unlikely, we have tried to come to terms with that and are trying to build ‘our best child free life’.

In the main, that’s going well, with a house move and lovely holidays planned, but multiple times a week (day??!) I have a sucker punch ‘micro grieve’ around something I’ve read, or something I’ve seen on TV or film showing a mother child relationship or a happy family experience. Fiction is almost bearable as I know it’s just that, but it’s the true life accounts of motherhood and ‘ ha ha, jolly family life!’ which seem to permeate womens magazines.

I honestly feel like it IS death by a thousand cuts.

Not sure what I’m looking for by posting but just wanted to write this down. Infertility is the cruelest thing in the world.

Sorry to hear you're feeling hopeless Blankspace4. I sympathise with you. Although we are lucky to have a son from our first IVF cycle, we've had two failed cycles since. I know it's nothing like what you've been through but I can relate in some way. I'm sure you've considered other options but I cant help but wonder if you've considered embryo adoption? x

I know what you mean, it feels like it is everywhere -internet, magazines, TV etc. Even an inane cookery show while we were eating our Sunday brunch this weekend. It wasn’t the point of a segment of it but every guest and presenter starts rolling out their “l have a funny child” story

Radio presenters get me, particularly Saturday and Sunday mornings. Everything is focused on kids/families* - as if no one exists except parents with young kids.

*because in the general population world, you aren't a family if you haven't got kids.

Today I'm not ok with this reality.