Mother’s Day

[mustnottouchmyface2020]

Finding today really difficult even though I thought the Coronavirus anxiety would be enough of a distraction. It’s the 8th Mother’s Day I’ve had and still I’m no further forward. Multiple failed IVF’s, a stalled adoption process and no end to this crap in sight. Just made the mistake of looking on social media and so many baby bombs, stealth boasts and friends sharing how wonderful it is to be a mother. I can hear my neighbours children playing in the garden as I type, I shouldn’t be wallowing in self pity but finding myself feeling small and insignificant and just so sad

@mustnottouchmyface2020 I’m so sorry you’re feeling so sad. I totally understand and I think it’s normal to feel this way when you’re struggling to have children of your own. I feel the same, and it’s really tough wondering whether I’ll ever get to be a mum myself. I would imagine everyone on here feels the same.

I try and ignore social media as much as I can as days like today can be awful (and there’s always someone showing endlessly posting about their children!)

Please don’t feel insignificant - I know exactly how it feels to have women talk about how having children is their biggest achievement and how hard/rewarding it is to be a mum, but it also takes a strong woman to go through IVF and everything else you have done. Yes, being a mum is a hard job but it doesn’t make us who don’t have children any less important or significant.

Thinking of you xx

💗 I’m with you on this.

Nothing we say will help, today is a difficult day.
Happy for friends and family but the baby bombs have been tricky and I could cry/scream/smash the tv up every time the EBay advert comes on...if life was as simple as “94 seconds” to get our dream.

Thinking of you, cuddle your loved ones, eat some chocolate and snuggle up. We will get through this 💗

Just sending a hug, been there, done that, bought the endless T shirts. There's nothing I can say that will make it even slightly easier, but you are definitely not alone.

@Thewait2020 could not agree more about the eBay advert!!

@mustnottouchmyface2020
I'm with you: there are so many of us in this horrendous boat!

I'm still reeling from my 5th cycle being cancelled mid cycle last week.

I've struggled today: so much so, I went back to bed at 1pm. I just couldn't handle it. I've now 'pulled myself together', so to speak and I'm just trying to keep on keeping on...

I received two message today acknowledging mothers day (I have had 2 MC. Most recent one in December) The first message was to wish me a Happy Mothers Day- I loved reading that message. The second was to say; thinking of you on this day - the acknowledgement is huge. It really made me cry.

Big hug and warm wishes to all you ladies finding today especially hard. We are strong together xx

@Thewait2020 OMG; yes, the Ebay advert... just no! I hate it. So much. I actually turn the channel on the remote with force whenever it comes on!

Also feeling very under a cloud today. It's been 3 years and several miscarriages. We had the okay to start our first round of IVF just before the outbreak... which is now cancelled due to lack of anaesthetists. I'm so sad, it feels like a never ending wait, and now it will be 4 years before I even get a chance 😔

Feel your pain. Am 5 years deep into this infertility crap and all I have to show is about 7 cycles of ovulation induction, an early miscarriage, pregnancy loss at 17 weeks and since that two failed ivf cycles. Today has not been a good day. Oh and there have been two pregnancy announcements in my family in the last two weeks which shouldn’t hurt at this point but did. So My dear, you are very much not alone even though I know myself how much it can feel it sometimes. Xxx

Thank you so much each and everyone of you for replying. I know we’re not alone in this but sometimes it all gets so overwhelming and the guilt of feeling like you shouldn’t be sharing your fears and frustration but I guess the reality is these feelings have to be expressed unless they consume you completely. I tried talking to DH about this but at the moment he is so anxious about Coronavirus and the risk to family members he just did not want to hear how I was feeling. I have all that anxiety on top of this sadness.

I wish none of us had to go through this, it’s truly the shittiest club to be in but knowing I’m not alone helps. Thank you xxx

I’ve decided to delete all my social media. Can’t deal with it. Our first social work adoption visit has been cancelled and I feel I’m stuck. My friends are either pregnant or recently have their babies. There are too busy to message and chat. Just bleugh.
Thinking of you all.