Anyone feeling so despondent over CV?

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I feel like we can’t catch a break with this IVF. Did our first round last April for MFI. His sperm results went up significantly for the ivf and our consultant recommended we try naturally for 6 months. Went back 6 months later with no luck and consultant maintained she didn’t even know my DH result had improved and she definitely didn’t tell us to try naturally we were both in shock. Next test went back to crap again so 6 months wasted. We moved clinic and got a referral to a urologist who said my DH has a Varicoele. Waited 3 months for an appointment to get it embolized. Waited another 3 months to do IVF again for it to hopefully improve sperm quality and due to start end Feb when I got a horrendous cold sinus and chest infection. Had to defer a month and then due to start again tomorrow and the clinic has cancelled all cycles for the foreseeable.

We just can’t catch a break. Can’t even get to the point of doing the ivf we need never mind whether it actually works. I’m seeing women I was on threads with last April having their babies and we are nowhere and who knows when we will even be able to do a round again.

I feel like we’ve made such a mess of it. We should’ve ignored our consultant and gone straight into another round or moved clinic there and then. meanwhile I’m 3 years older than when we started trying today a baby.

That's really unlucky OP

I'm so sorry OP. I feel your pain, I feel like a lot of my time was wasted by the medical system too.

I know it's easier said than done but keep the faith that your time will come. Try and use this time to ready yourselves for IVF, take supplements for egg health and sperm health, try and eat 'right'. Try and get some exercise to strengthen your body as IVF is tough. That's all you can do at the moment but your time will come

Thanks ladies x

Agree with Pink. Just get yourself in the best possible shape ( physically and mentally).
It’s hard , I know.

Best wishes OP

Goodness me, I am so sorry OP. I am in a very similar position, but we are "only" 18 months in. It's horrendous. I just had a big old sob in the bath and was going to start a thread but I am lost for words. There is nothing to say, nothing to do, only plod on and pray for a miracle. I feel like I am grieving for the baby I now may never have.

We also have MFI and a varicocele. DP had surgery for it last summer which worked initially but then appears to have reversed. Everything looks and feels sorry like it did pre-surgery. I was upset but I had braced myself; I knew that only 30-50% of men who had the surgery went on to conceive naturally.

But then lo and behold, look what's happened. It really feels like that anecdote about a man looking both ways before crossing the street then having a plane fall out of the sky on him.

I am also worried sick for my DH who has asthma, a heart condition, and works in the NHS with CV patients every day. He has been working 17 consecutive days and counting. He could die if he catches it.