Tomorrow I start taking the fertility jabs to get started on IVF. I’m so nervous and stressed out it’s unreal. I’ve spent the last week pretending I’m ok and totally broken down tonight.
I just turned 37, with my SO for 18 yrs and got married last year finally. We agreed to start trying in the new year and decided to get tested first. He’s absolutely fine. I’m not. Left Fallopian tube blocked (so there’s a risk of ectopic pregnancy) and AMF is low so we’ve been told best to go with IVF as we don’t know how many eggs I have left and for how long. I’m also Hypothyroid with Hashimotos (autoimmune disease which I’m controlling with thyroxine and diet) and recently diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. So I feel completely under pressure that I don’t have time plus I feel my body is constantly fighting against me.
Doc wanted to get me started early on pre pregnancy vitamins and due to gluten, dairy and soy intolerances i reacted to all of them and ended up ordering a new expensive one from the US that is hypoallergenic. Also reacted to Folic acid but thankfully not to Folate.
I decided to reach out to my close friends when I found out and ended up completely regretting it.
“It’s not the end of the world” is now my least favorite phrase. None of them have been through it, none of them know what’s it’s like and none of them are even following up to see if I’m ok. To top it, my husband is trying to be supportive but I’m so emotional he just honestly doesn’t know what to do and we ended up arguing over silly things. He needs support too but I’m so overwhelmed I just can’t be there for him at this point.
How have you handled the emotional side of things? Any advice on how to handle it with your partner? Does this process get any easier?
Feeling so lost right now...