...I know I've posted here before about the meds not agreeing with me, so I hope I'm not pushing it. To be honest, I've reached my limit and I feel hopeless...I can't live like this anymore. I keep thinking that I don't want to be here at all.
I had a transfer on Monday...so am at the start of my two week wait, on 8mg of estrogen and 1ml progesterone shots a day. But I don't know if I can wait two weeks before coming off the medication. I know the embryo won't survive, but I'm not sure I will either.
This isn't me...I was a really happy person, now I can't cope, I can't stop crying, or thinking that everyone would be better off without me. I've never felt so desperately low, and a stranger in my own skin. The clinic don't really acknowledge the problem, and don't hesitate to increase my dosages even though I tell them how I feel.
My head is so foggy that I don't know what to do - stop the meds (there is a voice in my head saying, Jesus, stop taking that shit) or keep going til the 2ww is over.
thanks for reading
xxx