laparoscopy results - I feel so very sad

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had my laparoscopy yesterday. I have secondary infertility, first conceived easily. I had a traumatic cesarean with my son and it appears this is where the damage was done.

so I had an anterior placenta that embedded too deeply into my womb, emergency caesarean to deliver him.

the laparoscopy showed my womb has attached itself to my front abdominal wall when healing, and both tubes are blocked. they've suggested a hystoscopy to see if I have adhesions inside my womb, potentially they could remove them.

only option is IVF, but given my womb is attached to my abdominal wall it makes it a high risk pregnancy, plus if I have adhesions in my womb even if removed it might lower the chances of IVF.

I think the odds are stacked against us. IVFis so expensive and we would have to take a loan, with no guarantees.

I think I need to come to terms with the fact that this is the end of the road and embrace the life we have, which is a lovely life, but today I just feel a little broken and very sad.x

Sorry no advice but just wanted to reply to say I feel for you and take it easy on yourself
Big hugs 💖

Sending 💕

OP, I am sorry . To me, what you have said about accepting the end of the road makes sense and I hope that ending the uncertainty will, in a while, help.

I'm very sorry. I don't know if you will decide to review options or if this is your final decision but I wish you all the best in the future with your family. Secondary infertility is isolating and confusing even with a 'lovely life'. Allow yourself some time to heal .

thank you, I'm going to do the hystercopy to check whether my womb is scarred inside, then I guess we will make a decision from there.

I've had a good cry, and I'm going to complete the tests, we might still do IVF, but need to weigh up the pros and cons.x

My c section caused adhesions and damaged my tubes too (although not blocked) and I ended up with 2 ruptured ectopics and ultimately lost both tubes. Also had 5 mc since c section. If you can I would opt for tubes to be removed - there are lots of payment plans for IVF now - ours would have cost about £250 per month for 2 years but luckily we had savings but will need to take a loan out for another cycle x

So sorry to hear this OP

Hi OP, I have similar due to emergency c section. Have started fertility treatment for second child. I am resigned to the high possibility that we will be unsuccessful but feel that if I know I have tried them maybe a year down the line I can let it go. I think I see it this way because I’ve had longer to get used to the idea of no more children even though I’d desperately like another. We had 5 years of primary infertility and conceived through treatments so I think in time you just find the head space and get used to it x I don’t always communicate gently so I hope this comes across ok

thank you, no it doesn't come across harsh. I'm going to finish the tests and then see where we are, I'm too emotional to make any decisions today, I think we need to let it settle first then see.

That sounds like a good plan. I hope all goes as well as possible xxx