Really feel like it will never be me!

[Kachieble1]

Just baby bombed/announcements/gender reveals/ social media story’s of kicking bumps and baby showers. All day today. Every one of my friends has a child or is expecting. I’m only 29 and me and my husband are being treated for severe male factor. We are now just waiting for my first period day to ring to start icsi but it’s not till next month and my period is now 3 days late so making my cycle later next month and now maybe looking at starting in the new year as my clinic closes around Christmas time so needs to date the egg collection before they close for Xmas. I feel so depressed and so fed up of waiting!
I can feel my period coming, I’m normally always regular and before anyone asks I know I’m not pregnant, it’s definitely so unlikely after 8 years of trying!.
I odviously have patience as I’ve waited 2 years to get started on the icsi. These last few months are just killing me and I am now finding it hard to get out of bed. I just want a child so badly and I just can’t ever see it happening.

I completely understand how you feel, I also feel like this, it sounds terrible and as happy as I am for others I can’t help but feel a lump in my throat every time I hear that someone else is pregnant. It’s a horrible feeling, good luck and I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you!

I had days like this too and it completely floored me each time. I found once we got started on ivf it felt like we were doing something finally to take control. Good luck xx

I completely know you you feel. I’m slightly older and all my friends are on their second or third pregnancies. It’s very hard. Unfortunately you can’t avoid the baby bombs etc but social media you can avoid. I think I know which two celebs you are talking about and I have decided to unfollow. Happy for them but not good for my mental health!

It’s just seems so easy for everyone else I feel isolated tbh. Probably not helping myself as I avoid certain people and family members when I know their pregnant or have new borns. I flat out refuse to engage with my husbands family as there has been nasty comments from his brother all while his wife is pregnant.
Christmas is coming and I do see them Christmas Day but agreed to make it brief this time as I can’t cope anymore.
It’s so hard and I think back to last year then the year before when I thought to myself - I might have ivf by next Christmas and have a baby/pregnant. But it just doesn’t seem to coming round. Really thought we’d have done one round by now and I’m still waiting and waiting. I’m just having a moany week 😄.
I laugh about it but deep down I’m just crumbling and nothing is going to make me feel better until I’m pregnant and have a baby.