When it is all over

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The the relentlessness of trying to conceive ends with you admitting you are never going to be a parent - what do you/did you do?
What was your first steps in moving on?
What was the point when you realised this is just never going to happen for you?
That you are never going to be the "good news" story of "once they stopped trying it happened" or those other stories you hear in an attempt to keep your spirits up?

5 mc and 2 ruptured ectopics in the last 2 years and im now permanently infertile

I only really came to terms with it in the last couple of weeks - the hospital arranged a funeral for my ectopic baby which was 2 weeks ago and since then I've actually been feeling like I'm ready to move on. I am in the middle of a second cycle of IVF though however this time I'm very much going into with zero expectations- if it works it works if it doesn't it doesn't. I have shit luck when it comes to ttc

To be honest I didn't expect to feel like this so soon and I can't say it was a gradual thing it - I just woke up one day and realised that it didn't consume me the way it did before

I used to worry and stress about what the future would look like when we were no longer trying for a baby - having no tubes sex will never be about making a baby ever again and that was a weird feeling for a while but now I think life will be what we make of it

No one can ever say that we didn't try and didn't give it our all (literally nearly dying twice!). I will have no regrets and that has at last given me some peace

I’m not sure touting for business is appropriate on a thread like this.